Monday, January 18, 2010

Surprising myself

You know, I'm really surprised at my calm right now. I'm not jumpy, I'm not stressed, I'm not worried. We have $6000 due in a month or two and I'm o.k. with that. God's gonna handle it, one way or another.

The more weeks we wait (we've been on hold for a month, as of tomorrow, not that anyone's counting) - the more people jump in line in front of us. The more parents requesting gorgeous little girls that wont be my little girl. And I'm o.k with that. Cause those little girls aren't Olivia anyway. She will be ready and waiting when God predestines her to be.

But still it's hard. I'm on a yahoo group board with other America World moms (and a few dads!) and see their praises when they get their referrals, prayer requests when court dates near, and tears when they don't pass. One big praise is when a family is DTE (or done with paperwork and it is sent to Ethiopia). And while I am joyful that each family on our board is another orphan with a forever home waiting, it is still hard to see other's announce their 'spot in line' and know that's a month or more that you will have to wait.

But as I said, right now I'm o.k. I just hope that God keeps dishing out that peace for the long term. Cause I'm pretty sure there will be moments I'm not so calm and collected.
And just to brag on my wonderful husband - I had found a loft bed that I knew would be perfect for the girl's room. That would give them extra room to still play but also room for two beds. This loft bed I found was not inexpensive. Darn it... So I thought, I'll just stalk Craigslist for a year until it pops up. Or maybe a month. It came up and we were able to get it at a virtual steal. Tony knew it was something I wanted so it was a done deal the moment I mentioned it. He even got up early on Saturday (after he's gotten up early every day this week and worked really late) - to drive 2 hours to go and get it for me. And here is the final product: A super cute little girlie room with big girl bed and little crib just waiting to be put back together for little sister -


Katie Funk Goodwin said...

What a hard place for your momma heart to be in! I am sure that your Olivia is exactly who she is supposed to be- but the waiting is awful! I'm still praying and I am confident that everything will work out as it should.

The Beaver Bunch said...

Love the new bed! What a sweet little girl room.

Praying for your heart to continue to be content with where you are in knowing that God already knows where Olivia is and He is protecting her.

beBOLDjen said...

Love your take on everything! So wise. Your Olivia will arrive in God's perfect timing.

The bed is awesome!

jackie said...

I feel the same way you do! So glad for the DTE's referrals , court passings and travel plans, but so anxious for it to be our turn! Soon, girlfriend, soon it will be our time!

Missy @ It's Almost Naptime said...

LOVE the bed.

Here is the one I have been dreaming about -