When is a dream just a dream? A secret present given, an experience into another place or time, only for you to see? Or when is that dream meant to be shared, at the risk of sounding crazy? I know that God gives his children spiritual gifts, but when is a vision of your own conjuring, and when is it something more?? It's so hard to discern. I DO think God still talks to his children in dreams and visions. He did in Bible times, why would he stop? My son was once given the vision of a majestic lion, turning a shy and timid teenager into a spiritual soldier from that day forward. Scripture even says it will be happening with greater frequency. "Christ has generously divided out his gifts to us." Eph 4:7. "Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men shall dream dreams, and your young men shall see visions." Joel 2:28 My dream was much less of a call to action, but more a gift of HOPE. Here is my account, take it or leave it:
15 years ago, I had two little boys at home under the age of 5, along with a newborn daughter. I had laid down with her for an afternoon nap and was subconsciously allowed to 'visit' Heaven. The only way I can describe it is intense. Intense, rich colors. Intense beauty. Intense sounds of birds and animals. Intense PEACE. The peace was actually the thing that stands out to me still. How there was no worry of time, or where to go, or things I needed to do.
I was in the valley. With a gorgeous blue sky above, and green meadows full of colorful flowers all around me. At the top of the hill before me, under a massive oak tree, Christ waited.
I climbed the hill and sheepishly approached him as he smiled down at me. It was as if I were the size of a child, and he, a Father. (Which really isn't something I have found in Scripture, but hey, it was the dream I was given and it is what it is.) I asked him if I could sit in his lap and he almost laughed. But just smiled a little smile and said, "Of course you can, Daughter".
Completely star struck, I then asked, "Can I hug you??" Kind eyes with a big smile this time - "of course you can!" I don't know how long I sat on his lap. Or if we talked. Or went down memory lane. But I can tell you, I remember his eyes. You could fall into his eyes. So deep and caring. I don't even think I could say their color, because they were unearthly. They saw into your soul and hypnotized you into a state of complete peace. Of safety. Of love. I will never forget the feeling I had looking into his eyes, and having him look down on me with a Father's love. Unmatched and perfect. Him looking down into the eyes of the little one he had saved from death.... it was an intense bond I don't think is possible to share with another human.
When I awoke, it was not with relief but grief. I wanted to be back on that hill more than anything. I was upset and angry. I was never suicidal, but I would have traded this life, my young children, my newborn - all to be back in his arms. The peace was THAT perfect. I don't even remember if I told my husband or best friends about my dream that day. It was my secret to keep.
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My first opportunity to share was a few months later when a good friend was on her death bed, dying at the age of only 30 with cancer. I then thought... here is the reason God had let me have those moments. To share with her. I told her of my dream and told her not to be scared. That even though she would meet him soon, she would be loosing nothing, but gaining everything. And I left her that day with the task, "When you see him, tell him I can't wait to hug him again." I didn't cry when she died. I was jealous in a way. I no longer have a fear of death. This world is not my home. The blessed hope.
Conversely, a few years later, a young mom I had been trying to get to go to church with me told me about her near death experience during open heart surgery. She had been medically dead twice, and they brought her back. While under, she said she was going down in a dark elevator.... looking up at her two daughters at the top and screaming for it to stop. She said she had no idea what she was going down to... but it was intense FEAR. Her heart raced and she was terrified. Screaming until she awoke. I told her about my dream, and how no matter what, I would NEVER be using that elevator. I didn't have that fear. I explained the Gospel but she insisted, she "just wasn't ready". I have no idea what path she will eventually chose to walk, but I did as the Spirit led, and have peace in that. It is her choice to make.
I tell you all this because the other night, I had only my second dream ever that I would describe as prophetic. I was walking in the woods and came upon two bears feasting on something. As I froze, one looked at me and came charging. He was literally skin and bones. But rose up to growl at me with huge, nasty teeth. But instead of running, I stood tall. I opened my arms to make myself big, and yelled as loud as I could. I don't know about the bear, but I effectively scared my husband to death!! Minutes later, as he held me and lay his head on my chest, both our hearts pounding - I felt God say: "They are evil. And evil is bearing its teeth now. Trying to scare you. But they are dying. It is time for Christians to stand tall. Act Big. And be LOUD."
So there you have it my friends. The first blog I have written in years. I share my experience only because I feel like whether we meet on that hill tomorrow, or 30 years from now, our time is short. Be LOUD. God triumphs over evil in the end. Regardless of political parties, sin culture, or economic conditions. But fight the good fight. Stand on the side of righteousness and quit letting culture tell you to be quiet and stand down. Call out evil against our children. WE are children of a Mighty King. And He is alive and moving in these last days. We have the gifts of hope and a peace that they do not.
For his children, he is waiting for you. For those who are unsure, he is waiting for you to choose to meet him, it is still up to you. I would never dream of choosing wrongly.
**the paintings are from a young prodigy named Akiane. She painted "Prince of Peace" at age 8 from visions and dreams and noted it was his eyes she was most drawn to. Her website and book showcase other paintings of Christ, his creation, his children, and Heaven.
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